SICK!!!!

i don't feel good today. man, i feel BLERGH. sick... lucky for me i'm staying nearby, for now. will be staying in s'pore for this wk & the nxt. till tuesday- woodlands hm, the rest @ our new flat @ boon lay. still got sch.. i wanna die.. well, not that meaning. gosh, i hate my throat. i hope it doesn't drag till so late. i'll just die.

this Sun i'm goin for the May cosplay outing. it's not an outing where we cosplay, really. it's more of outing for cosplayers. we just dress up normally & meet up. we're going hre:

Hans River on 28th May
Lunch 11.30-4pm
Venue: next to Simei Mrt .. East Point Mall

ppl who confirm, diedie will go:
takahan, jes, spidey, rini, ayu, logic, sasuke_dragon, zero_destiny, dz, poh, skye, acktosh, steevan, ayuathena, daisuke, eva, tsukikage, minosa + me

that's abt 19 of us? yeah. out of all of them, i only know 5 up close & personal (takahan, jes, spidey, logic & eva). the others all new. it'll be nice meeting all of them. spidey was happy that i'm going. i'm happy too. he's like a big brother to me now. can call him 兄さん now! that's big brother in jap. i kinda miss him not being online to chat with me. bored, u know? well, i'll be waiting!

man, this sickness is really getting to me. i hope i can come to sch tomorrow. it's science. everybody HATES science. but my team members r fun. Justin, Joel, Joycelyn, Qian Qian. Those ppl will nvr dump sch. That's cool, b'cos just today for enterprise, 7 ppl nvr come, & all of them were in the same clique, xcept for 1. i'm afraid of that. nah, trust my team. & hope i can come.

i may be the 1st ones to be interviewed by the EMP- Electronic Music Production, the one & only DJ club in any Poly in S'pore. I hate to be interviewed. i dun have any portfolios whatever. Mike says the heart & passion counts. man, i dunno if i can talk & be active @ this stage..... so sick.. & the sch library's closing. I should be heading home....watch BLEACH!!!

kichigai mood

i dunno what i feel abt this class anymore... it's changing alot. it's splitting, forming cliques... i dun feel that comfortable. Past experiances, if u know what i mean. sm ppl r givin me 'the eye' behind my back. what the HECK is going on??? man, i'm innocent in this. or am i? dunno, dun care... niwe, back to real life!

i jus found my FF VII disc 2 yesterday..man, was i so elated! i missed that game! even though i've gone through the whole thing for 5 times since the past 4yrs, it's still my no.1 game (well, besides SO: TTEOT). i think i'm going crazy over everything ff7. Blame that for that (I dun understand what I write 2)! ever since that movie came out (FF VII-AC), i've been worshipping sephiroth & the SHM for some unknown reason *OH KADAJ...OH YAZOO...OH LOZ.......OH SEPHIROTH!!!!!!* (crazy bats) Even my blog was sephi-remade (arigatou, neko-chan!!), as u can see. I liked sephiroth a long time ago, but it just boosted my interest lvl. PLAYPLAYPLAY!!

Cosplay...cool! I just love the goth wedding photoshoot! got to know more pips, like eva, jessica, razor, angeline...etc. the pics were jus fab! the experiance was real cool 2. it's just too bad rui wasn't there. jes was abit lost, tell ya. the rain jus spoilt everything, but our spirit lived on! beautiful, huh. just too bad i can't stay there till the end. it was already ard 8 when we got to the harbor front bus statn. reached hm ard 11. haha! that's the latest i ever went back hm for a long time (in fact, NEVER!!).

There's another photoshoot tis sun, a wedding goth wedding photoshoot agn, to replace the one rui didn't attend. hey, wait, a SUN?? man... i dunno if i wanna attend that. but heck, i love photoshoots!

i entered the mentorship programs for STA students. It's a gd start for us 1st yrs to kickoff our diploma projects. i'm not alone. Justin, my only STA classmate, jumped in the boat too, along with other 30+ students. Hey, we're shortlisted, ok! so only us chosen ppl get to do this. i esp enjoy the acting class (today's acting agn), but me & justin agreed to do backstage for the play. Yes, the whole project is abt producing a play. but when i read the backstage sched, makes me think twice. We're gonna work with the ppl @ StreetFest. StreetFest?! I'm cosplaying there! what if i end up working at the D'J Fest & can't cosplay? NOOOO!!!!!!!! I'm gonna rebel!! Nah, the 1st thing i'll do is ask Annie if i can transfer to another event of the StFest (hope i get the hip hop part!), if i can't, i'm gonna ask her if i can wear my Shinigami costume & give me some time to do photoshoots with my Bleach team. if not..I'm really gonna REBEL!!!! WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA!!!!

I notice that i keep staring at others' long hair. what in the PLANET is WRONG with ME?! Ok, that, i know the reason. i'm gonna cosplay aerith for cosfest. & i'm STOOPID enuf to go & cut my hair. Hey, not that i have any choice! my hair's splittin! i'm not gonna suffer under that any longer! but i miss my butt-length hair... nvm, grow agn! but rite now i have a big prob. TO WHOEVER READING THIS BLOG OUT THERE & KNOWS WHO I LOOK LIKE: DO I NEED A WIG??? gosh, i'm going crazy over this! I'm completing my aerith costume soon (heck, haven't even done my Shinigami costume), but Sephi-Zhang begged me to do his props for him. Hey, like i have the time. I can't believe i fell for his stupid puppy phrases on MSN. I'm not promising him though. HAHAHAHA!!!

*jumps up & down & do the edea dance to liberi fatali with masamune in hand, ready to chop off anyone's head*

man, i really regret not goin to that group...ah...wanna scream!!!! but rlax..I'm with my own comfort friends, so cool. it's too quiet today.. i hate it. everyone's on their own. I'm gonna hate this lesson. Ok, without Fu Ann, I'm the chaos maker in the class. But wuuu...i wanna die of boredom sia.. it's just that sm types of ppl can make me noisy & sm so quiet. Waa... all girls in my group... makin me nuts. I prefer at least one guy in the group. Yeah, smhow a guy usually perk my crazyness for sm reasn. & i'm so far away from innocence. the heck? 4geddit. I'll be stuck for the next 16 wks in this team. Haizzz..... wat's wrong wif me? is it b'cos... nah, 4geddit. it can nvr happn in this life, or any other life! innocence is.. AAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wah... Poly...

Now's the 3rd day of official Poly life in RP. Tell you the truth, I was abit disappointed on how they run things here. But if not for my great bunch of classmates, I'l be regretting I ever even been here. Wat caused my disappointment? Well.. i'm NOT learning what I'm SUPPOSE to learn! I mean, I took up New Media, xpecting super fun animating & all, but u know what we ALL 1st yrs had to go through? Basic science, math, problem solving, enterprise &.. what's the other one... oh yeah, communication! Ok, fine, I admit, those skills will strongly help me in my future, but I dun xpect to learn it now! & we'll be like this for like the next 16 wks! Most of us felt cheated on the system, but what to do.. we're already part of it. Gotta get used to it, ya? My class.. the greatest ppl I ever met! I mean, they're really cool, even tho abit silent. Shy, I guess. But once we got to know each other, it got the ball rolling! So far, I'v known mimi, amira, loga, jian yong, melissa, jasmine, joel, cindy & aminah in close proximity. It's the team thingie that did the job. I wonder who'll be in my next group for the next subject, problem solving. Oh, it's Loga, Jian Yong (agn! Wah, 3 days in a row, man!) Ka Lam (cal) & Wee Lee. Man, class's starting... today's enterprise istead. Yer, the facilitator looks so serious. Reminds me of my physics tcher.. yoks. Ok, class starting..

Eh...? Long time nver update..but wat the heck, got no time..so jaaaaa!

Cool??

Can't bliv it, but I'm staying over @ my cosplayr fren Rui. It's not like I wanna, it's just that if I go back..cut this short, I'm just lazy to go back after hanging out with the girls. Yeah, yesterday me, rui, neko, jes & raina went shopping. Agn. It was cool. It's hard to seperate when u'r havin so much fun, & guess what I ended up doing. This. Well, yeah, maybe it's a chance of a lifetime or something. Very paiseh 2. It's cool, I guess..
Ysterday was wow. Had alot of fun I rmemberd the feeling I"v forgotten in yonks. & thinkin..well, I'v got a packd sched next wk. Maybe goin out for the cosplay shopping with Snowhart (c if the girls r up to it).

NANI???!!!!

Wow...I got into republic poly. the New Media. Well, not my 1st choice, but watever. Closer to home!! Yeah! WOOHOOO!!! I dun care where I end up, really. As long as it's something to do with animation & stuff, I'm SOOOOOO in!!! HAHAHAHAHAH!!!! Well, it's cool. & for dat I'm gettin a new laptop!! Dat cool or wat?? I hope it'l be a meaningful poly life. Not like my sec life, SOOO ABSOPOSILUTIVELY BORING!! Ok, I'm sounding crazy. 4getit. I tink I'm gonna get the Acer with the Centrino Duo. Heard it's the latest, or something. Still got a budget to think abt tho. Hah... wel, @ least I got somethin to fiddle abt with. I'l even have internet on it! Broadband 4 life, man! When I get dat, nobody's gonna peel me away from my notebook! I'l even use it in the loo! Nah, wudn't want to get it fried in the water. But almost everywhere I go, it's gonna be with me! GUAHAHAHAHAHAH (I'm startin to sound like Heidigger of FF VII. YUGH!)
Finally, the moment I've been waiting 4....my Cosplay Life is Official!! WHOOOHOOO!! Man, it's a whole new world for me. I've been involvd 4 a long time, but I don't get this much of freedom. I love being a graduate! Oh yeah, this year's projects-
Feb SMU U- Goth
Mar WinterFest- Goth
Apr DJ Fest (or watever)- Ninja from.. I 4got. Gotta check
Jun StreetFest- Kuchiki Rukia @ Bleach
Jul MOY Cosfest- Aerith @ Final Fantasy VII AC (I can't blive I'm gonna b her)
Dec EOY Cosfest- ???? (Havn't decided yet)
I'm with a grp 4 Bleach & AC. Currently there's 8 ppl in the Bleach grp & ALOT in the AC team. Current list states 12 & growing. We'r suppose to hav a meeting this sunday, but I dunno if I'm goin. Mite b out. Dunno. Ruizou & Raina not goin b'cos of comitments. I dun wanna go alone if I'm goin! I won't know anyone, well, except for the hansome/pretty Jesuke (she's a girl. Period.). I may even 4get what she looks like. AH.... it's a small cosplay world. Everybody knows everybody.. I don't. Man, this just... Wooops. Well, I'm just glad I'm active.
I had a major argument with Sagel. It's like he's being 2 much! I mean, I'm his sister, godsister,ok, & I made it clear. He's like trying to make a move on me! Yeah, I love him, but as a brother, I respect him. He has to respect me too if he wants us to be happy. If I have a boyfriend, I'm gonna feel miserable. Not that I don't want 1, it's just dat rite now, I need an older brother more then ever. & the last time I remember talking to him was on the phone. He was crying. Uh..tell u the truth, I hate weaknesses. I just dunno wat to do in these kinds of situations. Rite now, Jamien's acting his brotherly roles on me. I like him. He's those kind types. Advices me alot. Tsu's trying to patch me & Sagel-ni 2gdr agn, but I ain't botherin.
Lately, Sagel's been pretty violent in his singin. As in those rocker types. I'm concern abt dat. I know he's stressed up b'cos of this. I want to be there for him too, but unless he learns how to be with what I am, I can't. I guess this is another of those sibling arguments. I hope. Hahaha! I'm gonna tell everyone of my posting results when I get home! YEAH!!

O LVL RESULTS!!!!

I can't BELIEVE IT!!! I PASSSSEEEEDDDDD!!!!! Every freaking subject!!!! WHOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! Flying colors too... ok, not, but enuf to get me tothe courses i want. WHOOOOOHOOO!!! I just registered the courses today. But I didn't print the varification slip. Heck it. They don't need it, rite? I hope not. Jeez. This guys @ MIRC anime r teasing me agn. Shucks. Wat stuck up ppl. I'm never goin to chat there agn. Hmph. I made progress in FF VII- DoC! Actually, I completed it. In like 1 1/2 days. Easy. I love the game man!Anything to do wif FF jus RAWKZ!!! HUAHAUAHAUAHAUA!!! Ok, I'm sounding crazy. My friends, ok. My life, BORING as usual. I'm going crazy 4 Gackt's songs alredy. Man, I just love J-Rock. I'm gonna recommand it to my band members to play @ our next gig which is in.. I dunno. I'm gonna do it anyway. I can almost imagine myself rocking away over the lead. I dunno if Sagel can pull over Gackt's high voice. I can, in a fem way. Duh! Tsudane-kun wud surely agree wif me. He just loves a good beat. Jamien wud have to play the support on this one, tho. I wonder what Kade will think. He's so.. wat my teach Henry said abt me in the testimony? Oh yeah, reticent. Or watever. Well, I'm not. Ok, maybe in a way. But U can't blame me 4 those guys, or rather, girls, hating me 4 wat I am. Kade's always giving me that dislike look. What have I done to deserve that??? Jus b'cos Sagel treats me like his little sister (man, he's figgin protective, but crazy like Tsudane, so it's cool). Jamien's the kind 1, the goodie2. But Kade, it's like..well, smthing mysterious, his aura. I kinda like it. But he dosn't seem to like me (is it b'cos I'm the only girl in the band? & I'm doing the lead guitar?). Too bad. Heck, gotta go!

oh, heck it.. I'm stuck in this internet cafe... Loud music... Kinda catchy.. but I need to get outa here. Have I found all the info I want? Dunno.. Oh, hey I'll just love to go home & jam on the ps2 again. Now that I finished Kingdom Hearts & KH2 (WOOOHOOOO!!!! Sephiroth KAKOIIII!!!!), I'm like left with... alot of games. Shadow Hearts 2 (but I dun really like, though I must admit Yuri IS funny), Magna Carta ToB (I almost finished that one, but some IDIOT had to delete that 90+++hrs of gaming! DO you KNOW how long I have to get that done!!!) Guess I'll replay FFVIII. I just LOVE Squall. Not in a girl-boy thing. It's just that he reminds me alot of myself. & we even have a scar on our face (but I didn't get mine b'cos my rival slashed me with his gunblade). Makes me laugh alot, seeing him. Humorous. I think I'm hungry. No, I am. I havn't had a sip/bite of anything since I woke up! Wait, I did have sm hot chocolate.. Don't count. I'm still hungry!!

Man, 1st day & I'm already on the dole prob. Like so not cool. Yeah, cool, cosplaying's great. But I'm like so totally BROKE! Gotta get a job quick... hope to cos as something on the next event. In 3 wks time? I dunno how I'm gonna scrap cash. I guess all I can do now is design & research for accessories. When I do get the cash, I'll spend it all like a typhoon! Nah, that's not gd. My brothers I trying to help, what do they know? If they come to an event, all people do is scream b'cos...well...costume or no, they still look good... how gifted. Oh well.. gotta be independent on this one.